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i live a life of regretted since when?
i regretted that i didn't study hard last year. if i did, i will be like some of my classmates nowi regretted that i continue serving. having to go through all this changes.
i regretted making that decision.
and many more decisions that i made, i regretted.
past few weeks have been tiring for me. having to go through training, competitions ,coping with studies, piles and piles of homework and obviously meetings and planning. i really feel like giving up and if not for the points i think i will quit by down.
why am i doing so much for?
what will i get in return? - scoldings?
is this the life i want?
how am i going to cope with my studies?
why the real me? looking at the past photos, and also like what gladys say after seeing my profile picture. i look happy in the past.. but not now i think?
we spent 8hrs planning recess duty today. from 1plus or 2plus till 0920. so this show that even if we have a lot of manpower, it still not easy to plan duties. so recess duty should be out anytime. i am predicating that student leaders will complain? as i say, it not easy to plan things to please everyone. really have this urge to tell those who complain that if you think that it so easy to plan duties, why don't you come and try? so appreciate what we have planned and do it to your best.
sometimes, i have to ask myself this, why am i so committed into the student council? for the passion or the commitment that i have to do things to my best? on the other hand, being so committed to student council, i neglected some other things. i neglected my studies, which i am trying my best to manage this 2 well.
something i am very happy is that at least we have ms wong as the I/C of student council. on friday, i attend a very meaningful meeting. especially what she said, submission to authority.
sometimes, i have to ask myself this, why am i so committed into the student council? for the passion or the commitment that i have to do things to my best? on the other hand, being so committed to student council, i neglected some other things. i neglected my studies, which i am trying my best to manage this 2 well.
something i am very happy is that at least we have ms wong as the I/C of student council. on friday, i attend a very meaningful meeting. especially what she said, submission to authority.
thursday game we lose.
today, a tiring day? emily and co, which i donno how to spell their names, they done something. have meeting with ms wong and the rest of the 5. going to have interview with ms ho on monday. i don think i will be able to get any of the 4 head positions. i know i am pessimistic as what shawn say. but i really wanna prepare myself for the worse. cause i don't want the whole scenerio of what happen at the end of sec2 to happen again.
IF i did not get of the positions, what i can say is that accept the fact.
should be delighted that at least i am given the chance to be acting president for a month. even through this month have been a tough times for me, having to oversee things, doing davao presentation, planning assembly duties, sec1 tour, dismissal routes, seating plans, being the one that get scolded by teachers when any student councilors made any mistakes and also being accused and not saying anything in return. not only all this, still have to struggle with cca, homework and study. all this that i do this month may not be seem by the student council except for those fews that have been working with me. and even if it recognize there nothing i could say. even through some of the student councilors may not be happy with what i am doing, but it really impossible to do things to please everyone. and i admit that i didnt really do a good job being an acting president, but i have try my best. even IF i didn't get any post, i will have to accept the fact.
still, i have to wait for the result.
right now, i have endless homework yet to complete. last weekend had been so busy for me that i didn't complete my chinese homework and i have to stay back today to complete.
there many tests coming up soon. a good start for my Physics Test. at least i score as what i expected. 15/20. next up will be POA test tmr, Chemistry Test on thursday and Geography 2 weeks later. i don't understand geography, this is because when she teach, most of the time it out of points. and i understand much better when i read my textbook. i have to take my combine humanities for O level. but the good new is that, i don't need combine humanities for the course i want to enter.
i think that all, B girls softball national going to start tomorrow. we are going to play against 3 schools.
and tuesday, my mum brought wii! oh yeah, have been playing for the past 2 days. because i wanna played wii everyday, i finished my hw earlier than expected.. so maybe it a motivation for me or maybe a distraction cause i am not doing much revision.. lol.
life as a sec5 have been slacking i guess. i did not sleep in class or use handphone in class. great improvement lol. have been listen attentively i guess. maybe due to my O level result tat got me moving.
cca fair, competition and almost every things fall on this coming saturday -.-
the first day we don't need to wear tie.
the feeling is very weird
i admit tat when i am given the chance to wear tie,
i didn't wear it properly. but now i regret.
even through it hot to wear tie.
right now, i would rather wear tie.
so back today schedule,
most of the time spend in the hall.
first thing in the morning,
it started to rain when i leave my house
so, i went over to my grandma house wanting to get umbrella..
in the end, my aunt send me to school
so reached school, start our briefing and duty.
back to class and down for duties again.
precisely, for all the talk, i didn't heard the starting and ending.
except for the sec4 camp de..
that all for this update, a busy day today. another coming up tmr!
i am back from chalet yesterday.
on the first day, my shirt stink, cause we played smelly water bomb. we only slept for 3hours in the morning, cause we will talking all night. we sleep only from 5plus 6 to 9 plus. brunch at tampines, back to the chalet.. we played water bomb again. BBQ start, i got burn cause i accidentally touched the burning charcoal. the plan was to ton through out the night and a number of the sec2s stay overnight too. in the night, the sec2 s they all went over to changi to eat supper, on the other hand, the sec3s, calvin and i we stay at the chalet.. alot of funny things happened. we locked calvin and wendy outside. the next time, the 2 of them locked us out of the room. we went out to room 2 to sleep, but in the end, we went back. the sec2s took the first bus home, the rest of us slept till 9plus.
i got the EAGLES award. $200 :D
on the first day, my shirt stink, cause we played smelly water bomb. we only slept for 3hours in the morning, cause we will talking all night. we sleep only from 5plus 6 to 9 plus. brunch at tampines, back to the chalet.. we played water bomb again. BBQ start, i got burn cause i accidentally touched the burning charcoal. the plan was to ton through out the night and a number of the sec2s stay overnight too. in the night, the sec2 s they all went over to changi to eat supper, on the other hand, the sec3s, calvin and i we stay at the chalet.. alot of funny things happened. we locked calvin and wendy outside. the next time, the 2 of them locked us out of the room. we went out to room 2 to sleep, but in the end, we went back. the sec2s took the first bus home, the rest of us slept till 9plus.
i got the EAGLES award. $200 :D
during the 2nd day, when we're allowed to visit some of their houses and know about their living conditions, the house tat i visited, the places is very fun. and it not properly builded. the floor is not like our, but soil and rocky.. it will get muddy when it rain. the 2 children i have a hard times communicating with them with all my weird weird actions and the both of them ignore me and run away after awhile, i still learned. after tat, i went to join the other group in the games. and i have a wonderful times spent playing with the children there.
anyway, back to today, attended my cousin wedding. i will not want to go orchard.
this coming week going to be packed with activities starting from monday.
monday meet up to buy items for BBQ.
tuesday to thursday prefects chalet
friday PEC rod.
firstly, i have to say sorry to mandy, cheryl and wanyong. i am the one that cant control myself yet your are the one that running around. and i have really put your in the middle. as what i have told your, once i got very angry, nobody can stop me from doing anything, not even myself. it like the devil within me explored and take over me. i know your try to calm me down, but i just cant calm myself down. i am sorry to the 3 of your.
i got really angry it because, we're playing at our own half the court. and yet your own half the court. why your suddenly stop playing and come over? we're playing basketball. i am actually playing very happily. and yet, YOU, just throw the basketball and it hit my head. putting you in people shoe la. talk crap, say what it basketball court. got your own court don want to play come and disturb. nothing much better to do. have you even tot wat is the consequences? wat is tat ball tat you throw causes some brain damages, you wont know it. or you hit someone tat is weak or wat so ever. the worse is that you causes dead of someone with just one hit. wat are you going to tell the parents. OH, IT BASKETBALL COURT. are you going to be responsible for your own action? just say, " i am sorry, this is a basketball court, you cant blame me" you totally spoiled the fun. so wat it is a basketball court, don you need to watch out for other people safety too. so what if you're so good in your basketball? SO what. so what you're in the national team, as if. if you killed someone with that "accidentally" hit, you will still be called the murder. you go and tell the parents, " i am sorry, this is basketball court". than you just keep standing under the hook let people "accidentally" hit you for one whole day.
seriously, i should not returned your the basketball. you're not the one tat running around looking for me. but my 3 juniors. they're not the one tat causes me to be so angry. but your are the one. i should have dump the basketball into the bin, and release more air.
i got really angry it because, we're playing at our own half the court. and yet your own half the court. why your suddenly stop playing and come over? we're playing basketball. i am actually playing very happily. and yet, YOU, just throw the basketball and it hit my head. putting you in people shoe la. talk crap, say what it basketball court. got your own court don want to play come and disturb. nothing much better to do. have you even tot wat is the consequences? wat is tat ball tat you throw causes some brain damages, you wont know it. or you hit someone tat is weak or wat so ever. the worse is that you causes dead of someone with just one hit. wat are you going to tell the parents. OH, IT BASKETBALL COURT. are you going to be responsible for your own action? just say, " i am sorry, this is a basketball court, you cant blame me" you totally spoiled the fun. so wat it is a basketball court, don you need to watch out for other people safety too. so what if you're so good in your basketball? SO what. so what you're in the national team, as if. if you killed someone with that "accidentally" hit, you will still be called the murder. you go and tell the parents, " i am sorry, this is basketball court". than you just keep standing under the hook let people "accidentally" hit you for one whole day.
seriously, i should not returned your the basketball. you're not the one tat running around looking for me. but my 3 juniors. they're not the one tat causes me to be so angry. but your are the one. i should have dump the basketball into the bin, and release more air.
sunday, went for softball rod at downtown east coasta sand resort. stay there for 1 night and my parents went to fetch me yesterday night.
the first night, we have BBQ, i started the fire, which was a success! oh yeah. after tat, during the night. after receiving the first warning that we made too much noise, mandy and i, we went out to cheer to get 4 bottles of 9 degrees. when we came back, the whole group was gathering around 1 of the table.. and we didnt went over, we went to sit at a "tent" with benches. the person came to give them 2nd warning, and they went in. mandy and i we continued to stay at the "tent" to continue talking until 3plus, when 2 lizards freak us out. we went in and everyone conquer the beds, so wendy, mandy and i we conquer the floor.
2nd day, when they wake up, we went to conquer the beds for 2hours. before proceeding to e hub for bowling and lunch and back to the chalet. i continue my sleep, and some of them went to arcade,and the 5 of us stay in the chalet. i am sleeping and the other 4 will having pilllow fight. we have nuggets from mac and canadian pizza for dinner. i went home at 12plus.
going off for training in less than 2 hours. hope it fun and it will end earlier...
the first night, we have BBQ, i started the fire, which was a success! oh yeah. after tat, during the night. after receiving the first warning that we made too much noise, mandy and i, we went out to cheer to get 4 bottles of 9 degrees. when we came back, the whole group was gathering around 1 of the table.. and we didnt went over, we went to sit at a "tent" with benches. the person came to give them 2nd warning, and they went in. mandy and i we continued to stay at the "tent" to continue talking until 3plus, when 2 lizards freak us out. we went in and everyone conquer the beds, so wendy, mandy and i we conquer the floor.
2nd day, when they wake up, we went to conquer the beds for 2hours. before proceeding to e hub for bowling and lunch and back to the chalet. i continue my sleep, and some of them went to arcade,and the 5 of us stay in the chalet. i am sleeping and the other 4 will having pilllow fight. we have nuggets from mac and canadian pizza for dinner. i went home at 12plus.
going off for training in less than 2 hours. hope it fun and it will end earlier...
i am going for softball chalet tmr till tuesday.
i am going for prefects chalet next week from tuesday to thursday.
i am going for my cousin wedding this coming saturday.
and many other things/events.
i am going for prefects chalet next week from tuesday to thursday.
i am going for my cousin wedding this coming saturday.
and many other things/events.
anyway i wanted to post this on tuesday but i am too tired that i forgot.
this is for someone. firstly, you cant blame anyone tat you keep running. your job is to stop all the ball, it because nobody is behind you to cover you. when you're playing outfield, you should get ready to run, but yet you complained.
haha, i am back from davao trip yesterday. i reached home at 10pm. i really enjoyed myself there. experiences and learned a lot of things. we experiences at least 3-4 times of black-outs in the hotel. 1 of which was the whole city black-out. learned geography. more about their cultures. more about leadership skills and many other things. which i am too tired to type out the whole of 8 days.
anyway, i using 2 handphone numbers now. my old number will only expiry 3 months later. and my new numbers have unlimited sms! the new number start with 911*****. haha. random.
anyway, i using 2 handphone numbers now. my old number will only expiry 3 months later. and my new numbers have unlimited sms! the new number start with 911*****. haha. random.
i finally went to church today. i went to changi airport after that, so yesterday never thought of going to send the china cip people. but in the morning when joyce or yanlan told me tat faith flying off today. so, i went to send them off since i going to changi airport to meet mandy. so cut everything short, mandy joined us at 2pm when she rushed over from T2. so our plan at first was to go off and at 2pm, in the end, we left the airport at 3pm and off to lavender follow by army market follow by plaza sing and reached home at around 7plus.
so we (4 of us) wanted to go and watch 2012.. and in the end, we went to the japanese fast food restaurant to eat. on the way to lavender to meet wendy, something happen on the train. mandy was laughing like siao! due to the hair-eater tat still owe me 10k. (mandy will get it) and also the soya bean joke! haha.
tat all, i flying off to davao this wednesday, will only be back on the 25th. i am yet to finish packing my luggage..
so we (4 of us) wanted to go and watch 2012.. and in the end, we went to the japanese fast food restaurant to eat. on the way to lavender to meet wendy, something happen on the train. mandy was laughing like siao! due to the hair-eater tat still owe me 10k. (mandy will get it) and also the soya bean joke! haha.
tat all, i flying off to davao this wednesday, will only be back on the 25th. i am yet to finish packing my luggage..
i am playing maple, my bro came in to my room, asking me to go alj to help him photocopy stuff and buy mac. i tell him later, because it raining and i don wanna go under the rain. i have been under the rain for almost half the day. he wanna play maple because i don wanna help him, i just play for less than 2hours. he the one tat played for the past few days, i never ask him to let me played or wat. he go and switch off the whole laptop.
i donno wat wrong with him, i getting more and more fed up with him. one of the night, he took my laptop in and out of the room a number of times which causes me to keep waking up. for many times he played mahjong through out the whole night. right now,just because i don wanna help him do things, he switch off the whole thing. every time, he say i selfish, but has he spare a thought for me? i am the one that have to wake up every morning to go market with my mum, but yet, he just stayed at home and sleep and wait for his food. right now, he just switch off the whole laptop.i am not his maid. why cant he just go and do his things by himself and leave me alone.
i donno wat wrong with him, i getting more and more fed up with him. one of the night, he took my laptop in and out of the room a number of times which causes me to keep waking up. for many times he played mahjong through out the whole night. right now,just because i don wanna help him do things, he switch off the whole thing. every time, he say i selfish, but has he spare a thought for me? i am the one that have to wake up every morning to go market with my mum, but yet, he just stayed at home and sleep and wait for his food. right now, he just switch off the whole laptop.i am not his maid. why cant he just go and do his things by himself and leave me alone.
this update is just a random one: Prefects' handbook suppose to be a confidence item.
it seem so long since i last update. today went to school to put all the things for BBQ. and make all the counting. i rush over to tampines - century square. i went to fix my extra battery. because they give me 2 batteries. 1 of it spoiled, so my mum ask me go and have it fix before i fly to Davao next week. so they replaced a new one for me. one of the auntie give a me a queue number so i save on time to queue. :D thank you auntie :D i reached home at around 4plus, and the moment i reached home it started raining so heavily.thank god for holding the rain till i reached home :D.
so i started on my research for the presentation. i am finally done with it after a few hours. just that i haven't find the photos yet -.- i need to get it done by tmr. so that i can have time to print it out..
right now, i haven't even called wholesale to edit the order. so i am gonna called them tmr. i haven't even started on my revision yet, in fact i didn't even received the topics that are tested for headstart test. there not much homework this holidays so i am gonna start soon..
oh ya, ms khek/mrs hooi, she say she not going to teach my class next year. i feel sad about it. even through her teaching not say very good, her teaching will cause me to sleep. but she one of the few teachers that friendly. she willing to help me mark extra comprehension (yes, i do extra comprehension when i feel like doing it). furthermore, she has taught my class for 2 years. i admit that my english did improved through her teaching. by looking at my grade for this year. i start to fail my english since sec3, but this year i passed!
so i started on my research for the presentation. i am finally done with it after a few hours. just that i haven't find the photos yet -.- i need to get it done by tmr. so that i can have time to print it out..
right now, i haven't even called wholesale to edit the order. so i am gonna called them tmr. i haven't even started on my revision yet, in fact i didn't even received the topics that are tested for headstart test. there not much homework this holidays so i am gonna start soon..
oh ya, ms khek/mrs hooi, she say she not going to teach my class next year. i feel sad about it. even through her teaching not say very good, her teaching will cause me to sleep. but she one of the few teachers that friendly. she willing to help me mark extra comprehension (yes, i do extra comprehension when i feel like doing it). furthermore, she has taught my class for 2 years. i admit that my english did improved through her teaching. by looking at my grade for this year. i start to fail my english since sec3, but this year i passed!
oh yeah, going to see the new television later? i am yet to get back my report slip. maybe will get back on monday? this year they have the class position thingy, so i wondering will my class have? if have, i am most likely to be in the last few places.. i going back to school on monday for extra lessons till wednesday :D
holiday schedule:
extra lessons 2nd - 4th Nov
Davao Pre-training 5th and 12th Nov. 1400-1800
Davao trip 18th Nov - 25th Nov
Prefects' chalet 8th Dec - 10th Dec
including all the softball training. which i cant rmb the dates...
seriously, nobody know wat happening to me except for me myself. this is because my expression have been the same daily. not wanting to show anything. covering everything. being getting used to it.
going to davao with the school from 18 Nov - 25 Nov. which is 8 days 7 nights. yesterday we have the meet the parent session, my aunt went. by looking at the program flow for the 8 days, i quite exciting. we're going to have exchange program with DCHS, cultural exchange, dialogue session with the vice-mayor or mayor, CIP and many more.
next up, i am gonna post something that when some read this it, your maybe unhappy or what..
your may think that i am selfish or what so ever. but for currently, the room still belong to the prefects and not the students council. even through someone maybe a student council, but it still did not give him the right to walk into the room and put his bag. there still prefects inside. what the point of the sign outside the room? " only prefects are allow to enter "
anyway, some will know who i referring to.
that all, a few more days to the start of O level.
bye.
next up, i am gonna post something that when some read this it, your maybe unhappy or what..
your may think that i am selfish or what so ever. but for currently, the room still belong to the prefects and not the students council. even through someone maybe a student council, but it still did not give him the right to walk into the room and put his bag. there still prefects inside. what the point of the sign outside the room? " only prefects are allow to enter "
anyway, some will know who i referring to.
that all, a few more days to the start of O level.
bye.
7 more days to O level - english papers.
follow by emaths and amaths papers.
O level will last for 1 week for me.
i didn't study for this 3 days.
saturday, after going to SPGG, i went to work.
sunday, after bowling, i went to work
today, due to sleeping late and waking up early for the past 2 days
i woke up at 9 plus 10. didn't went for cycling..
so, cant wait for school to start tmr
cause i cant study at home.
injections on wednesday -.-
i cant wait to go for davao trip in nov
i am finally have my chance to go on board a plane. -.-
i cant wait to go prefects' chalet in dec
tat all for this update, 7 days to O level.
follow by emaths and amaths papers.
O level will last for 1 week for me.
i didn't study for this 3 days.
saturday, after going to SPGG, i went to work.
sunday, after bowling, i went to work
today, due to sleeping late and waking up early for the past 2 days
i woke up at 9 plus 10. didn't went for cycling..
so, cant wait for school to start tmr
cause i cant study at home.
injections on wednesday -.-
i cant wait to go for davao trip in nov
i am finally have my chance to go on board a plane. -.-
i cant wait to go prefects' chalet in dec
tat all for this update, 7 days to O level.
last paper for EOY yesterday.
time check it 8AM! -.-
POA P1, hoping to get 30 & above
POA P2, it totally a killer.
just hope that i able to get 30 & above.
the topic that i am weak in: DEPRECIATION!
12 marks gone!
going to school in 1o min?
seriously, i am so lazy to update.
btw, i fell down from the staircase yesterday
i miss a step and there goes
my ankle suffer again
but i am still able to walk normally.
time check it 8AM! -.-
POA P1, hoping to get 30 & above
POA P2, it totally a killer.
just hope that i able to get 30 & above.
the topic that i am weak in: DEPRECIATION!
12 marks gone!
going to school in 1o min?
seriously, i am so lazy to update.
btw, i fell down from the staircase yesterday
i miss a step and there goes
my ankle suffer again
but i am still able to walk normally.
